When Life Goes Left, Go Right – A Personal Reflection
So here I am, officially starting the last year of my university degree(s), and although everything in my life went left life could not get any better. That’s a lie, life could always be better! But that’s besides the point.
The point is, everything in my life, internally and externally just went so sideways for so long I lost a big part of what makes me who I am.
So what went left?
Well, for starters, as a university student it is very hard to make enough money to pay for school, and for yourself to eat well, and to pay for car insurance, the list goes on and on. On top of the recurring financial worries every year, I’ve had bad luck with house mates and student advisers and professors (the list goes on and on..) which piles up into an overload of stress and anxiety.
I’ve been in university for 6 years now (this sixth year being the last) and of all of these years, only two of them have really been ‘okay’. University is a really hard adjustment. Even more so when you have so much going on outside of it that the adjustment alone can knock you off your feet. Well, this is an understatement of how I felt. Externally, the world seems to be falling apart. There is hurricanes and devastating forest fires and nuclear bomb tests and the world seems like the apocalypse is not such an unreal thing right now.
So why then, is life so great?
Well, recently my sister got engaged-FINALLY! After seven long years, the wedding bells are on and I could not be more excited. I am the maid of honor and am planning a bachelorette. I stopped for a minute in the middle of planning it because there was a time when I would have been so sad, unmotivated, and stressed that planning a bachelorette would have been a nightmare.
That’s how upset I was with my own life. How unhappy and completely beaten life had me.
Life is still looking pretty glum and the school stress is still there, if not even more in my final year as I head into back-to-back teaching practicums. So what changed?
Somewhere along the way, the little fire that burns in my heart and makes me the passionate and compassionate, laugh-attack, goofball self got relit.
I can’t pin point a day, or a time when this happened but one day, I received some pretty upsetting news that could have been detrimental to me completing my last year of school.
Yet, I refused to let this get me down, to deter me from achieving something I pushed myself so hard to achieve that I took three classes in the summer while working full time.
Which, by the way, was extremely stressful and again, for awhile I didn’t know why I was doing it all anymore. But after getting this news, I wrote a long message to my dad about how I refused to let this stop me, I was fearless and unstoppable!
The fire was back on, and the gut busting laughter hit me more often, I smiled more, and even when the end of the summer came with even worse news, I just didn’t car
I. Was. Unstoppable.
So, my message here, what I want you to take away from all of this, is that when life goes left: GO RIGHT!
Don’t let being fired, or being told you’re not satisfactory by someone else’s standards get you down. Let the fire, or whatever it is that makes you be you shine on because the only standards that matter are your own.
You don’t need a boyfriend, or a girlfriend, or a partner to make you feel awesome. You don’t need a certain job or a certain vehicle or a certain anything. All you need is yourself.
Create your own standards and live by them. If anyone else tells you you aren’t good enough well guess what, they aren’t good enough for you. None of us are perfect and we’re not going to do everything right but that doesn’t mean that when life goes left, we can’t go right.
University is hard, finances are hard, the world is literally on fire or flooding or being blown up but hey, go right. Make a donation if that’s what makes you feel good, what makes you ‘you’.
Just don’t give up, don’t let that fire go out because let me tell you, it is so worth it to get to the other side and to finally feel like yourself again. To finally hear your laugh again and to stand up for yourself in the face of demeaning challenges, it is so worth it.
Be your own personal cheerleader. When life goes left, go right.